Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Turn of the Wheel

I feel as though I am preparing to die.

Making amends, tying loose ends, saying goodbye to old (and new) friends. Packing my life into a box as though it will mean anything to me in a year... as though everything will be as it were when I left, knowing full well it won't. I feel as though I am preparing to die because this life I've known is coming to an end. It is about to be turned up-side-down in ways that I cannot begin to imagine.

This is both thrilling and unnerving. I am thrilled because I see the potential for unprecedented growth, unnerved because of the challenges that accompany such growth. I have spent the last few years developing myself into someone I am really proud to be. Developing relationships with people I am honored to know. Living in a town I am ever so proud to call home.. Good ol' Colonialtown, USA.

I can only think of this as the next step in my efforts to become the person I want to be.
I am about to embark on the biggest adventure of my life to date. I'm not sure how to prepare for the unexpected but I've been trying my best.

To paraphrase R.E.M., It's the end of my life as I know it... and I feel fine.